Happy Earth Day!

Here is a series of images taken on 4/20/18, from Trout Lake to White Salmon, WA. These are phone shots. I hope you enjoy, and I hope you find yourself grateful today for this wonderful planet we all share. Thank you for your visits, feel free to share my posts!

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Notes on PTSD

Notes on PTSD

I was asked “How has PTSD changed my views about myself”?

How indeed? In the beginnings I learned to trust less, doubt more, and hide from trouble and confusion.

I became less confident in my choices, in my abilities, my art, and my love.

I learned to be stronger in myself over time, until the next trauma knocked me down again.

Pulling myself back up time after time, dusting myself back off (frayed around the edges and missing pieces of my heart), putting one proverbial and physical foot in front of the other, I search continuously for the “right” way to go, and the “rightness” of new choices.

Some days I feel like a wise old sage… Others days are spent teetering on the edge of a dark abyss. Life is full of history, mystery, and presents.

I feel lazy, like a slug, a couch potato, and yet I feel too busy to think. I am the calm eye in the center of the storm, while also being the circling howling frantic winds of the hurricane.

I am strong and capable…

I am weak and hopeless…

I fear nothing, and yet stand shaking with terror.

My thoughts swirl in a metaphorical whirlpool, disappear into nothingness, and become calm and empty.

And then, add all this to the diagnosis of ADD, and sometimes it is hard to take a step forward out of fear,

but then I barge ahead like a bull in a china closet knocking over anything in my path.

Am I coming or going, or simply standing still? I’ve always been on the move jumping from subject to subject and place to place, until recently.

In the here and now, I find myself in this new place of holding still, being quiet, waiting for the winds of Heaven to dance through my soul and show me a path. 

I am Human. I am Woman.

Last of the Light

Bingen Point and Marina last week at the end of the day, peaceful, refreshing, with a semi-common type of Standing Wave Cloud bridge across the Columbia River just East of Bingen, Washington. We get these several times a year, sometimes rough edged like this, and sometimes smooth clean edged formations. There can be a few of them on occasion, with space between. Each row, or bridge, forms like the froth or smooth roll of water at the top of each wave, as tho the winds are like the waves of the ocean.

Redbuds, Blue Jays, and Joy

Spring is such a wondrous time of year. The sap begins to flow again in people as well as trees. Spirits lift, even spring storms become magnificent paintings instead of drudgery. I wake in the morning to the sounds of joyful birds and a smile on my face knowing that greens are returning via new leaves and buds; and colors will once again be painted into the landscape.

See more of my photography at starlisa.smugmug.com

Thank you!

Altered my Bandcamp Subscription

This lovely and amazing musician, singer/songwriter in the Pacific Northwest has a couple of wonderful albums out already of her somewhat Enya style/ gypsy/ elven music. She has many more new songs in the works since finishing her degree in Digital Sound Engineering, and has created a subscription plan as a way to share new songs with fans first before ever creating another album. This is her blog post about this, with a link to her bandcamp page. Please take the time to check her out and give her a boost!
Besides being a wonderful singer, I am proud to call her daughter.

Leannan Sidhe

After some thought, I realized those of you most likely already have my albums. I removed them from the subscription and dropped the price down to Bandcamp’s minimum of $3 to make it more approachable.

I am pleased to be able to thank my first sign up, who has apparently been spamming Breathe on repeat. 🙂 At least that’s what I’m assuming based off how many times they said they’ve played it so far. I’m delighted that it’s being enjoyed!

The link? That’s music.leannansidhe.com

(I will continue with the travel posts shortly.)

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Icy Catherine Creek

Today I’ve been sorting through old photos in my hard drives, and came across this series that I took in January 2011. I had so much fun wandering around in the icy conditions with my friends. I thought I would share the ones I got processed :-). I thought they were pretty cool, pun intended. This is in southern Washington.

Catherine Creek Falls has such a great flow in the winter. Notice the ice on the cliffs 🙂

Soon after sunrise at Catherine Creek. On this image I actually used filter on my lens that belonged to a friend. Now I can’t even recall exactly what it was called but it sure made things look pretty 🙂

If you look in the menu on my blog post, you can click on the photo galleries link to go to my SmugMug photo gallery.

Enjoy!

How YOU Can Support the Actually Autistic Community During Autism Acceptance Month

Another blogpost from a “Delightfully strange, passionate, artistic, nerdy, and fun” Autistic blogger. The Autistic Community asks for your help spreading real autism awareness on the internet and in person, to balance a lot of inaccurate or negative perceptions spread by the large organization “Autism Speaks”. There are no actually autistic individuals in the high levels of management of the organization, and sadly many people think they are speaking for non verbal autistic people when quite often what is going on inside that non verbal persons head may be entirely different. There are many “non-speaking” people with autism who have found other valid ways of communicating their thoughts and feelings; through a key board; through various speaking aid technologies; even through sign language and other methods.

Neurodivergent Rebel

A short video talking about how YOU can help / be an ally to the #actuallyautistic community this April.

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Wild Soul Woman

A Wild Soul Woman… 1/30/18

Always have been! Somewhat slowed down, and wings dampened by the storms lately but still this is my nature and always has been. Many is the time in life when I laid on a mossy bed in the forest and felt the movement of the roots beneath the ground and the wind in the treetops. My spirit has flown with the Eagles and swim with the fish, and although recent years have pushed me into hibernation, I will yet fly again. There is so much more to this world and this life than just every day celebration and traumas, wars or parties. I have little patience for small talk, always looking for meaning in life and celebration of connections.

Onwards and Upwards

One day at a time…. onwards and upwards… and this is a good day full of beauty! If your head is hanging down and you are sitting in a dark room feeling down, step outside in the sun or rain, and take a deeeeeeep breath in, look up and around, study the spring signs popping out all over the place, and remind yourself whatever the problem is, does not have to consume you. You have a choice, you can embrace each little moment of beauty and it can help turn things around for you. I know this to be true from many ups and downs in this life.

A Happy Life

No matter what you do in life, no matter what traumas or Joys happen around you, you can always look around you in this beautiful world and find good things to warm your heart. Feeling very peaceful and content today, and here are some of the reasons why.